The "let it out" thread.

I don't know. That's what I was saying. They think I've had it for a long time, but it wasn't diagnosed until it started getting worse suddenly this year, and I started loosing weight, and getting so weak I started having trouble walking and standing up from sitting or laying down. It's impossible to know how long I've had it. My doctor thinks years.

It's very treatable. I'm on two different meds already, and I'm starting to feel a little better. The issue is that my life has been miserable for years, and I didn't have any frame of reference, so I just thought the things I was feeling were normal. For example, when I got really depressed after my engagement ended, and eventually became a serious drug addict. It's possible that I was that deep in depression because my body was releasing hormones that were making me way more depressed than I might have normally been. It could have had very serious consequences on my life that I'll never know if they were really my choices or if I being influenced by hormones.

ok, i have never done something like this before, never really shared anything personal here but here it goes. i HATE that every time i eat marinara sauce i get heartburn, but now that i think about it it is kinda like alcohol, something so delicious has to have a drawback, still hate it though.

You could take Prilosec every morning or something.

i don't wanna take any meds for that, as mild as they might sound, im really against taking meds for something that doesn't need it. i guess im screwed lol.

White distilled vinager helps me with heart burn. It compensates a little for the job your gastric juices are tasked with, thereby not casuing them to "overload" and backup soto speak. It works most of the time unless I get carried away. I got that tip from some amish dude.

i will be sure to try it out, yeah im always down for something natural to take care of any illness.

Before I start I have a quick question. Generally there is a limit or at least seems to be one for threads and since we are in the 70's what's going to happen?
Now that my question is out of the way I need some advice or help. I've said it before but I feel like I can't do anything but at the same time I dont do anything. I'm not sure why I don't even try maybe its because im too depressed or maybe im too lazy either or the feeling stays and doesn't go away. For example I feel like I can't draw anything and that based off what I've done before when ive had to draw will look like crap. I also feel like I've wasted my and other people's time with my mere presence. I also feel like im just a nobody because i do alright in school but when i leave have no life. I just get on my ps3 or laptop and do something hell sometimes i just listen to music and even if i feel better for a bit I eventually have to turn it off and start to feel like I did earlier. i don't even feel relatively decent and when i look at other people and how they are happy i can't help but wonder why? What is so good about today that has it a good day? And worst yet i can't even say I'll be happy for summer. Why? Because the people who are closer acquaintances since i can't always find it in myself to call them friends are pretty much all seniors so they are leaving and next year ill be in the IB program so I won't even be able to see anyone else who I might later call a friend because I won't even have a chance to see them. No I'll be with other people who will be know it all's and im better than you because im smarter people or at least that's what I think. Because IB is for the really smart people that I don't even feel like I belong with because I feel so *** stupid all the damn time. ya know what's even worse? I only tell you guys. People i hardly know. How *** ironic is that? I dont tell my parents of closer aquantances but ill tell you guys. im sorry that sounds insultive and that's not how i wanted to come across. I just am trying to really tell how i feel so i can get the right advice or help that i can get from you guys. I think that's enough but there is always one good thing to posting how i feel here. I always feel a bit better and i know at least one person will have read what i wrote so that too makes me a little better.

That sounds a lot like what I went through when I was in highschool. I never really had many friends and after school I would just go home because I had no where else to go.

Depending on whether your in highschool or not I would recommend cutting time off of the PS3. I ended up having to do that with my XBOX, even though I really didn't want to. Also, I don't really know much about you on a social level but I would try talking with more people too. You don't have to make friends right away but just try to develop a different routine than the one you have right now.

I can say it's hard to do this, I had social anxiety when I was attempting to get better with making friends and it took a year and a half to get better.

Seriously though, one thing you need to do is make a new schedule. It doesn't mean to hang out with friends it just means that you need to do something else besides sit by yourself all the time. I just started going out on walks and jogs in the morning or at night. It helped a bit, but it still took a while before I ended up doing better socially with others.

^ Great advice

Getting/having a dog is awesome for that. That's why I got mine. It gets me out of the house, walking around in the sun, talking to people, throwing a frisbee, etc., 3 or 4 times a day regardless of what I have going on. It's another living thing to spend time with too, and they love you no matter what's going on as long as you take care of them properly.

twilightwarwolf wrote:Before I start I have a quick question.
Generally there is a limit or at least seems to be one for threads and
since we are in the 70's what's going to happen?

It gets locked and another one starts from page 1. This has to be the third or fourth let it out thread. There have to be 100 random off-topics by now too.

I can't understand off topic at all. I've tried posting but I have 0 idea what anyone's talking about half the time. It feels like the threads are really hard to jump into and specific.

*Goes to hide in the PVP board.

pvp's a huge part of this games online experience. saying that sucks is saying dark souls sucks.

Hahah are you lost? This is a Dark Souls forum.

Damn you both....now I have to quote Suicidal Tendencies!


"99% of life is what you make of it,
so if your life sucks....
YOU SUCK"

A quote I typically agree with. Many complaints (the day to day variety usually) are from people unwilling to look for a solution. However, in opposition to this lyric and in support of this thread,

there are often atypical circumstances which are justified complaints and are from people sincerely looking for the best outcome. This thread is generally the latter example.

Please, not here, don't bring another Dark Souls discussion to off-topic, let alone this thread.

Ya know its funny how when you look at something from a differnt angle how much the view changes. So here i was but a few minutes ago im happy that i did really well against some really good people on MVC3 ( which i just got back into )and i stop and i think on my day. It wasnt great by any means and it wasnt awful but it did/does have a bit of an odd ring to it. Which is very odd as i just today got out of school but thats besides the point. So im thinking and i think well ive had worse days where a lot of **** happened for no reason at all like when me and my family first moved to Tennesse. And i come to a conclusion that my life couldnt possiblely get worse than those days and so being on my comp i got to a few websites i frequent and i notice a title of a little written post by someone title something among the lines of wow i need to vent. Being curious as i am i click it to read it and at first i think ok seems normal enough moms mad at the child because the moms under a lot of stress and the child accidently forgot to do something. Normal right? Thats what i thought too until the second part came. Now its not my place to gossip on specifically what she said but to focus back to the main point it made me realize (at least for now) how much better my life is ( at the moment ) and that some of my worst days dont even compare to what she was talking about. Granted i still feel the odd ring that ive had all day but i definitely feel better about how things have been the past little bit because i can talk to others about my problems and because my problems ( seem for now to be ) much easier and more managable. And that brightened up my day a bit, not say i dont feel or the person andher problems but in comparison to them kinda helps me realize how much "beter" they are.

That's a good something to hold onto. I know I do.

Here's hoping she can find some peace too.

I can't believe what just happened. Absolute insanity. Last month I went to a standup comedy show with a few people I know. One of them this guy I went to high school with. We were quasi-friends in high school, as in we had some classes together, would hang out together at parties sometimes, which basically just means we drank too much booze near each other, and we had some of the same friends. So when we were driving home from the show it came up that we were both trying to quit smoking and I mentioned that I had patches that I wasn't going to use because I hadn't reacted well to them. So he asked me he could have them, and there was no reason to say no, so I gave him my phone number and told him to call me when he wanted them and I'd hook him up. So I got that call this afternoon, and I'm really sick still obviously, so I told him he could stop over but then he had to go so I could rest. He gets here and everythings cool, we're BS'ing a little, just shooting the sh**, and he suddenly gets real serious and asks me if he can confide something. So I say yes, I mean why wouldn't I right? And he then proceeds to basically lose his damn mind in my living room. He's talking about how this rich woman scouted him to be in a candid camera movie she's making about ruining someone's life, and that he agreed to do in return for all her money, but part of the deal is that he had to allow her to operate on him, and that she's already removed all his bodily organs save his brain and heart. I asked him about his lungs and he said no, that they were gone already. That prompts him to explain that what's really happening is that these people are actually after him now, trying to operate on him more, and because of the movie there are already cameras everywhere, so he can't stay in one place for too long because it'll make it easier for them to find him. He also explained that during the procedure they coiled his arms, and that they could uncoil them at any time, and evidently that was bad. And that the main part of what they were trying to do was to make him kill himself and that he was starting to want to.

This all lasted about 20 minutes, and I was just sitting here listening. I interjected a couple of times and at one point tried to subtly get him to go to the hospital with me, which coincidentally is about a block from my apartment, and he got really agitated and said the doctors were part of all this. It seems to me that this is what paranoid schizophrenia is, so when I started to agitate him I got real calm, and agreed with him as much as I could until he decided it was time to go. I didn't really know what to do. I called the hospital and was transferred to their mental health crisis line, and they reported it to the police who I guess just picked him up. Not how I imagined I would spend my afternoon.

It's unbelievable how crazy can just walk through your front door like that, and you'll hold the door for it and offer it a seat and a drink.

skarekrow13 wrote:....now I have to quote Suicidal Tendencies!...

Maaaaaaaaaan I seen them live with Queensryche and it...was....awesome!

Suicidal opened of course, but the lead singer "cant remember name" opened the concert.....WHILE STANDING ON A STACK ON SPEAKERS 20 FOOT HIGH!!!! He acted like he was gonna stage dive and jumped off, then he was suspened by one of the "Peter Pan Strings". The people in front row about s*** their pants. Best opening to a concert EVER.

I put that concert as one of the best of all time, even against the Metallica Black concert I seen. The only reason it even competes is because Lars and James did a drum solo together on that octogon stage thing they had back then....Ima drummer...so ya.


Thanks for the recollection skare...man the memories.

And also, sorry, looked like a possible conversation was about to ensue, didnt mean to cut in line.

***edit****

Okay maybe 15 foot high...idk, but it was high man.

@Plastic..... :shock:

Um, I think you did the right thing dude. I mean....lungs gone huh?!?!

Wow man, just....wow... :shock:

I have no idea what to say. I just reread it and again I say...wow... :shock: