Well not really. My departure from this forum has been a long time coming, the first reason being my relative lack of interest in Dark Souls as of late. I haven’t been playing as long during the past few months, haven’t bothered to finish builds I've started (screw using the mega mule, I earn my builds) and haven’t even been able to pay enough attention to my new Gravelord covenant. I’ve stopped discovering new things, pushed the limits of experimentation, and hit the peak of my ability having been ranked 68th in the PS3 1v1 arena; there were fewer than a handful of players I knew who could defeat me reliably and absolutely none who I couldn't put up a good fight against.
I discussed builds, maximized stats and armor, annoyedly pointed noobs from the general discussion section in the right direction, and roleplayed in covenant events. From Tolvo’s first “Glory to Alvina” threads I’ve been lurking the forum, and joined only to discuss with my fellow Forest Hunters. I improved my skills, joined the Darkstalkers. I’ve hunted hosts, dueled with the best, spanked ganks, and journeyed through Lordran with all of you here on the forum, whether our worlds came in contact or not. Even just as blue shadows in a dark place and orange messages glowing like fire, you are still all my friends, to some degree or another. But it’s time for me to go.
I’ve got obligations in a world where only the internal fire must be kindled. It takes one’s humanity indeed, but this flame must constantly be fed. It requires so much, and it gets hungrier the more I feed it. Without the pretentious metaphors, I have obligations. Obligations in a world where no one takes the trouble to praise the sun. Summer is coming to an end, and even in these months of inaction my interest in Dark Souls and my participation in the forums has hollowed. When I begin working on my major, leading my club, maybe founding a new one, dealing with friends and women, parties, concerts, and all the other frightful bosses to overcome… I can’t see myself continuing with Dark Souls; devoting my time to either the forum or game is something I cannot see happening- I don’t like to use the word impossible. This October, it will be two years since I bought the game. Two years, and I’ve played this game like none other. Played the hell out of it. Played enough of it, or almost enough. Certainly enough to take a break.
And there was a straw too, the proverbial dried plant that broke the back of the beast of burden. Between my fatigue and getting banned for my utter mistaken portrayal of certain taboo views (which I completely apologise for), the time has come to raise my sails and chart a different course. It takes only a small gust of wind to send one over a cliff, but a gust of wind just as small can push a ship on a whole new course, to a whole new shore. I leave my covenant, the Children Of The Grave, in the capable hands of whoever wants to lead it. Post in its thread if you want the job, and I will pick the best man or woman for it. Whatever is dead does not die but rises again, harder and stronger. Those who depart alive have even better chances of returning. And someday I may. Perhaps I will rise from beneath the cenotaph to usher in the new age of Dark Souls II. I will spread death. I will spread despair. I will spread the curse, on this forum or no. But I will be back in some form. Wait for me.
A few final words:
Tolvo: it’s thanks to you I was on this forum, maybe even for PvPing ever since your threads caught my interest back in the early spring of 2012. And for showing me your other side on Skype. I was surprised to say the least.
Roan: you’re the best duelist I’ve ever had the pleasure to face. Thanks for handing my *** to me whenever we chanced to fight.
Billy: You’ve been a great cov leader on the forums, an excellent duelist in Lordran, and a real friend on Skype. I’m definitely not quitting Skype, and there’s no way we won’t duel again.
That’s all, folks.