by Spurgun Wed Jun 13, 2012 2:16 am
Pain and suffering. We all live it. The choice we
have is, what we're going to do with it. It's what keeps us going
forward. We may think it's for some reward, but, really, it's to escape
the suffering we endure always. Most rewards do not change a thing. But a
few, like friendship, can ease the pain. As a burden on two shoulders
is less than one. My purpose: to suffer. I do not seek a reward. I seek
to live. To be where I am. I do not change my ways simply for a break
from the suffering, for it will come back someday. Somehow. Some way.
Even friendship doesn't keep all the suffering from coming in. I will
endure my suffering for what I believe in. I believe in serving Quelana
for teaching me this. Our long talks alone, the talks no one else will
know of, are more than enough for me to trade my time for. Even my life.
Though, I do not believe that will come. I see her becoming more and
more distant. I am afraid she will leave me. I will continue to serve
her as she fits. If she wants me to follow, she will tell me.
I
wasn't always like this. I used to be a knight of Carim. My family was
noble, and I was on my path to becoming a Lady. There are many ways to
do this. Becoming a scholar. Learning Politics. I decided to take the
path of a knight. I left that behind when the fantasy that is pyromancy
encased me in suffering. But this was the worst kind. A suffering I was
not aware of. I was like Laurentious. I thought I had the answer.
Meeting Quelana changed me in ways that are concrete in my being. I
cannot be who I was. Though, I still cannot wield a shield ha ha ha ha!
I do not understand you. You choose to suffer when there are ways to easy your pain. We seem very different, you and i. You choose to suffer while i choose ease the pain. You choose to not change while i change with time.
But in other aspects we are similar. I serve my Queen as you serve Quelana. We would both give our live for them.
Today i got the first good news in ages. My friend Kuol has sent a messenger. He says that he left our previous family. And now he has joined Nito. In order to bring suffering to others. I will soon travel to Nitos home to meet him. I look forward to this. But it was a long time since i last stepped out of the painting. I wonder if the world outside has changed. Nevertheless i am happy to be able to see him again.
Dragon you are a sinner are you not? You shall
pay the price eventually but not here nor now; my rapier remains
sheathed in this place of peace. Instead I shall tell you of myself so
you may know your enemy. My name is Ryan. I was born in the proud nation
of Astora to a family of minor nobility. When I came of age I was
trained as a knight; I was instructed in the use of straight swords,
greatswords and many other weapons but my true talents were in the
rapier and bow. I was however sheltered from the evil of our world until
I was knighted and sent into combat. There I saw innocents murdered and
my friends cut down by those out for personal gain. I fought on and
tried to ignore it as I knew I could do nothing more. Thus my life
continued until I became undead. In Lordran I hoped to find escape from
this evil but I still found those willing to prey on the weak. Now they
seek humanity and souls rather than power and riches but they are no
different. I roamed the land doing what I could against these fools,
these sinners but I was helpless to do anything unless they were fool
enough to target me. The frustration and anger was more than you could
imagine. Then I found Gwyndolin; He gave me and other warriors, His
Blades of the Darkmoon, the power to hunt these sinners as they hunt the
innocent. However in time many of these warriors proved false and
betrayed us, using the skills obtained in His service for personal gain.
I was enraged but He had a solution; He set a task, a duty to me and
another loyal warrior; we were to gather those Blades of true faith and
form a new order. This order would be known as Lordran's Deliverance it
would bring true justice to Lordran in a way that the Blades could not.
We were to be His Seraphs and we were to answer only to Him and
ourselves. With this He granted me armor made of brass and a bow imbued
with a part of His soul. That is why I am here, that is my purpose. Now
you know my story. Now you know why I shall always make the guilty pay
the price.
In what way am i a sinner? I chose to serve the dragons, who your lords killed in order to gain power. I chose to serve an outcast, who was shunned by your lords. You are the sinner here or better yet, your lords are the sinners.
So you serve Gwyndolin. You must know that there are people like you here too. They decided to serve our Queen, perhaps you will make the same decision one day. He has given you a task, to purge lordran from sinners. But we who inhabit the painting wish to be left alone. If you intrude in our world you should no blame us for attacking you. Would you let a stranger into your own home?
What is your name, sir knight?
