by EverlastingRat Wed May 01, 2013 3:40 pm
i remember this one day in middle school, we as a class went to take an exam on a computer, which at the time didn't know but generated random questions dealling from math, english, science, and after about 20 minutes, most students were finished...I was there for a little over an hour and a half...I thought i was fuqn stupid, especially since everyone had to wait until all had finished the test :oops: turned out that the exam was meant to keep going until you got a wrong answer
that made my day for me personally but everyone else gave me dirty looks for taking so long.
As for the whole maturity issue. what does that mean exactly? Little trivial and abstract mode of behavior... it just seems like an excuse to be sheepish. I'm not trying to offend anyone but I'd like to know everyone's stance. I know and understand who I am, not completely since with age I am constantly changing, and understand my role as a human being and my duties/responsibility within my family, me and my wife, our life goals, school, "work", and soon to be buying a house( though this somewhat conflicts with our life goals since we plan on going off the radar). Though this is all a personal understanding of my perception of this world. My code of ethics are somewhat stemming from my "heart" but there is a bit of cultural influence though. I'm 25, and I'm extremely childish. I'm sometimes astounded with simplicity of the natural world, a "mere" flower can entertain my thoughts about possibilities for quite some time. I enjoy gardening, creating/illustrating art/comics, and playing with animals, shhht i sometime still watch Little Bear( Maurice Sendak's work is whimsical and dreamy, i honestly feel like a little kid). Is this considered stupid?
hmmm... my childishness/naiveness has been always with me and it's what carries my spirit but I feel that my experiences with psychedelics have greatly amplified this and honestly have forced me at times to confront issues and personal demons. I've gotten to the point that I can somewhat deal with these issues on my own or through discourse with my wife.
So again, what is maturity?
Yo Skarekrow, I know what you mean. I had friends all over but it was as you say a "loose friendships". I still only have about three true friends, two from high school and the other my wife. I guess I learned to adapt and find common ground with all i meet, most of the time. I'm currently in Maine and the micro-culture is a bit off for me but I've recently have found a couple of people who are my cup of tea, after being here almost a year.
I guess i could consider this a rant? :suspect: and trust me I like this community, first forum that i've ever spent so much time at. You all have interesting ideas about life, not just the Soul series or video games.
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