There's someone missing.

Hahah, I am sending eHugs your way! Watch out! Same goes for you, Pendant. You are always so easy going.

Who here remembers when we moved into our new digs? Where we could finally do things like, oh I don't know, edit posts, sticky threads? But boy did we get some mileage out of the old forums!

I think I joined right after that. I remember looking at the wiki and then browsing the forum to ask a question about accidentally killing Solaire on my first run, and I lurked a bit and went to bed, then came back a couple days later and it was really different.

I remember the old thread. I posted there a few weeks before the new forum came. My first post was search for lore. I loved it. I made a lot of errors, but I was never too far off... I still see it still. I loved the story. The DLC... It has amplified my assumptions of things such as Artorias, the Demons, Humanity... I still would be thinking about it if I wanted to. I could.

I also remember the many individuals in the forum, which many that I knew in the old disappears. Zakkie, Carphil, and others disappeared on me. Others such as Darkness Stayed for a good while, and was an old comrade. I learned to learn more about individuals in the new forum from the old, such as Serious_Much. I learned to meet new friends such as Skarekrow, Fearandwhiskey, and many more...

Do I regret not posting the lore? No. Do I regret the choices I made? No. I think... I think that you should hold onto those fond memories, and fight for what you know is... what is right. Right for you, and right for those that you care for.

I think that, in truth, I have turned to the unstable for a few months. Those that did follow me should know that I was... bleh. I am sorry for that.

I Think that I destroyed it. I feel like I will be seeing a lot more hardships in the future... maybe different than it was before, but still hardships. Psychologically I was in strife. I think that I will be dealing with that much more as I am towards power. Towards different things that allows us to... I don't know... survive? More than survive I guess. Strive towards ascension.

Power of connection, of control, of endurance, of leadership, of friendship, of strength, of charisma, of intelligence, of knowledge, of construction, of destruction... in general, power is very important I think. I don't think people understand what Power is. Many see it as bad. I don't think so. I see it as something that allows us to grow. To evolve. To mature. To what we grow to be, mature to be, and evolve towards... well... I can not say.

I love humanity. I hate fighting. But I will keep walking. I have comrades. I have them nearby. I have many people that I know, and I know that in some way they care... for better or worse.

I can see some new challenges ahead. I need to do better this time, I think... I was tired. I am done waiting. Now I need to know how to keep doing what I need to do. I know what must be done. I always knew... even if it does hurt.

I don't feel tired anymore. I am good. I don't know if I want to stay here. I don't see much of a future here. But maybe I can give something. I don't know. I love to give. I love to share. It is very pleasing to see others pleased. Not like I am some pup waiting for a treat... but like when you give a kid a toy and they smile and get overjoyed... that feeling is good.

I need to stop writing. I need to relax. I don't think I have for a month or so... I think I earned it for tonight and some perhaps, I am not sure yet.

Nyx is a beautiful creature to look at when you can. Don't you agree?

Emergence wrote:Who here remembers when we moved into our new digs? Where we could finally do things like, oh I don't know, edit posts, sticky threads? But boy did we get some mileage out of the old forums!

Even now I have to send a nostalgic shout out to Emergence for being the first person to ever respond to one of my posts!

Props too ya man.

It's nice to see you again Acidic, the forum misses you!

Thanks Fex.

I realized that today is my birthday. I have nothing planned for it. A number thst is meaningless to me... I never cared for age.

I know that in three days I will be celebratong another however. That is more deserved, as she pribably sees value in it more than I see mine.

I already asked for my gifts. I only wanted one. I think I will save it until the time comes. I love to have my uniform still... Maybe I can wait. I know that I can. There are things that come first though... I need to work on what I need and have. I have a lot of catching up to do

Happy Birthday Acidic and I'm glad to see that you are feeling a bit more positive.

I don't like Birthdays either but that's because I'm an old trout and I'm staring into the abyss for real.

Happy birthday. I hope you get what you want this year.

Happy birthday! I hope you scored some red velvet cake at least

Is it strange that I never asked fo any party? Although I have what I wanted now... I feel content

Slake, you are a sweetheart. I don't know if tout is a right word to describe you. Skare, I think Velvet would be great to have it I did have cake