The "let it out" thread.

GrinTwist wrote:Hard to share, constant anger.

This is hard to do, because people intimidate me actually everyone intimidates me. My family, friends, and even you. I can't help it ever since I was a kid people scared me to death, up until being 8 years old I barely talked to anyone.

There have only been a few select people that I've trusted with only one left and still tell that person very little about me. Actually, this would be the first time I'll openly admit to the fact that I might be a transsexual. I've only seen myself content in a woman's body. It's because of that that I can barely find myself content on where I am now. I hate who I am.

That's not the problem I've recently struggled with. I'm somewhat of a misanthrope too. I don't exactly hate people as much as I dislike a lot of their qualities though. I'm able to contain it, I've always been able to keep my anger closed up. I just hate this feeling that I'm missing out on meeting people because I can't stop finding all their negative qualities.

I try my best to keep myself from hating other people and what they do but it's hard. The only help I've been able to find is that this anger will go away in time, and I hope it does because I don't want to think that this anger is going to carry out throughout the rest of my life.

Mr. Tart wrote:Yesterday i questioned whether i was still "human" or not, as i felt completely numb when i found out that Richard died. But today, right now, in the middle of class, i had tears streaming down my face. I haven't cried in a few years now.

reim0027 wrote:See a psychiatrist. Feel better. Take care of you.

GrinTwist wrote:Hard to share, constant anger.

This is hard to do, because people intimidate me actually everyone intimidates me. My family, friends, and even you. I can't help it ever since I was a kid people scared me to death, up until being 8 years old I barely talked to anyone.

There have only been a few select people that I've trusted with only one left and still tell that person very little about me. Actually, this would be the first time I'll openly admit to the fact that I might be a transsexual. I've only seen myself content in a woman's body. It's because of that that I can barely find myself content on where I am now. I hate who I am.

That's not the problem I've recently struggled with. I'm somewhat of a misanthrope too. I don't exactly hate people as much as I dislike a lot of their qualities though. I'm able to contain it, I've always been able to keep my anger closed up. I just hate this feeling that I'm missing out on meeting people because I can't stop finding all their negative qualities.

I try my best to keep myself from hating other people and what they do but it's hard. The only help I've been able to find is that this anger will go away in time, and I hope it does because I don't want to think that this anger is going to carry out throughout the rest of my life.

Mr. Tart wrote:

GrinTwist wrote:Hard to share, constant anger.

This is hard to do, because people intimidate me actually everyone intimidates me. My family, friends, and even you. I can't help it ever since I was a kid people scared me to death, up until being 8 years old I barely talked to anyone.

There have only been a few select people that I've trusted with only one left and still tell that person very little about me. Actually, this would be the first time I'll openly admit to the fact that I might be a transsexual. I've only seen myself content in a woman's body. It's because of that that I can barely find myself content on where I am now. I hate who I am.

That's not the problem I've recently struggled with. I'm somewhat of a misanthrope too. I don't exactly hate people as much as I dislike a lot of their qualities though. I'm able to contain it, I've always been able to keep my anger closed up. I just hate this feeling that I'm missing out on meeting people because I can't stop finding all their negative qualities.

I try my best to keep myself from hating other people and what they do but it's hard. The only help I've been able to find is that this anger will go away in time, and I hope it does because I don't want to think that this anger is going to carry out throughout the rest of my life.

I'm not really in the best state to give others advice, but i'll do it anyway. Life's hard, we both know that. People will treat you badly, people will treat you well. It will never be easy, but you have to keep trying, and you have to stand for your beliefs. If ever someone pushes you down or judges you for what you believe or what, then they're not worth your time and respect.

I recognize pretty much everything you said, minus the transsexual part. And i'll be honest here, i believe that you should be happy with who you are, and not try to change it, whether you plan to or not. But that is my opinion, and it shouldn't affect you. If you believe yourself to be a woman, then be one. If you can't achieve it, then try to look at your life and see the positive in it. Try to appreciate what you already have and live with it.

My mind is slightly elsewhere right now, but i hope what i'm writing actually has anything helpful to offer to you, and i also realize that everything i've said now proves that i'm nothing but a hypocrite.

I know most people say this, and i know more than average thank you for it but never offer it, but i'll say it anyway. If you wish to talk, we can. I may not be a very happy person myself, and in some ways we are alike i suppose, but i won't let that ruin things for you. I wish to cheer you up if you need me. In fact, i believe that perhaps, talking to someone in a similar situation could help you in some way.

As for hating people but fighting it. I've been there, and i'm almost getting back there again. My suggestion is to find something to express your anger. Something creative. If you don't already, try writing poems/texts/lyrics, paint, make sculptures or anything of the like. Get your emotions out with your creativity.

One more thing. If you are shy, and you wish to accept my offer, or someone elses, then try to fight it. It will be hard, but if you really want it, then do it. Take some time to think over it all, and do it. Contact one of us, accept our offer to talk, and we'll be there for you.

As far as me, i'm no good talker, but i'm a good listener. I may perhaps even become annoying and say things that sound wrong, but i always mean well, and i'm always there to help. This goes for anyone, not just Grin.

I'd also like to thank everyone for the nice comments i've been getting these past few days. It's really hard, but i appreciate it all. I really do. Thank you.

RenegadeCop wrote:Well, it's good to know you feel better now, if anything.

And, I found that, while we had a nice, 14 page long discussion in the jukebox thread, the music attached seemed to give off a more jubilant attitude, from my end.

I hereby claim that me and ParagonCop set the record for amount of pages discussing music.

Mr. Tart wrote:I do have skype: Eric Nylén Johansson

Slarg232 wrote:Can anyone please tell me why we are celebrating Boston going into martial law for a SUSPECT in the Marathon Bombing, based upon the testimony of a man who lost both his legs and is now on so many drugs that he can't even think straight?

EeAyEss wrote:I loathe humanity. The individual person I can learn to care for and love, but humanity as a whole is disgusting. They are selfish and moronic to the point of me asking, "Why in the name of God are you allowed to have internet? Why aren't you locked in your room? Why are you shown the light of day you piece of worthless, utter trash?" I have a very hard time coming to love humanity.

I understand that anonymity is an extremely powerful force on the internet, but I can't help but wonder why this crap happens? Why do people seem to not care about their fellow humans? Why? I hate humanity, but I'm not going to start a hate campaign. I'll help people, I'll try to converse, but I really will hate it until I get to know you as a person. I don't run around pointing fingers and claiming a certain facet of theology that someone has devoted their lives to is false and insipid. I don't go bashing people's lifestyles (well, I do my fair share of hating on #YOLOSWAG idiots, but that's private. Mostly.)

I just... don't get why people have no empathy. No sympathy, no compassion, nothing that redeems us as humans. Why is the most shown side of humanity the most appalling, disgusting, worthless side? Why can't people try to be good?

Man, *** humanity. I'll continue to care, I'll continue to try to empathize and sympathize, to offer charity to those less blessed than I, those in worse off positions in life than I. But it will be permanently stained a little black.

Mr. Tart wrote:

I feel the same way. IMO the best thing that could happen to Earth is if humanity was just wiped out.

The best thing we can really do is to be better than them. What i usually do is i try to avoid hating humanity, and just look down on it. It's one step away from being like everyone else if you ask me.